"If you give up your awareness of now, if you act without having a match in your thoughts, emotions, and your physical actions, you can throw yourself into great disturbance. If you tell off another person when you could have been quiet and held a Light Consciousness for them, you bring disturbance to yourself. When you do not maintain your awareness of and your responsibility to the now, the present moment, you separate yourself from your reality. And in that separation, you create your own hell. Then you only know your own Soul by the reflection of those who know the Soul, rather than your own direct experience of Soul." --John-Roger
Last year I had an old friend pass. I had sadness come up and I found myself trying to ignore it, Trying to push it away, trying to distract myself from the grief coming up inside me.
I recognized what I was doing and caught myself.
I then allowed the feelings to come up.
I noticed how they began to flow instead of holding on and trying to damn them up, hold them back, control them.
I realized it was more painful to try and stop them.
The grief came on and I allowed it, observed it.
I let the bittersweet river flow.
It was real and it was alive.
All the rivers eventually flow to love and forgiveness if we allow it.
Photograph by Hubble